Blogging keeps you honest. Well, assigned blog writing keeps you honest. This is the power of having a team to be accountable to…it keeps you honest on a deadline. The daily responsibilities of swiping your time card, taking your dog to the vet, doing the grocery shopping and cleaning house harnesses you to the delusion that the “to do” list is a tangible acknowledgment of success. It becomes easy to avoid deeper digging into our desires and needs when the ceiling is leaking and another storm is in the forecast. How quickly we can compartmentalize our artistic, philosophical, and intellectual selves when the entropy of daily life coaxes us into believing those parts of our life cannot solve the demands of existence.
So we stop…we forget…we just give up on the layers of our lives which can’t seem to pay the mortgage or fulfill the demands others seem to be placing on us. But in the end, it is our choice…our fears, our exhaustion which paralyzes our need to feel life ever present, and ever profound.
I envy the artist who simply cannot exist without facing those fears every day. They enter the studio, they harness the exhaustion, they make the choice to act, to create, with complete understanding that they may fail. My lack of artistic productivity these days rests in my fear of failure. I am not a failure in the role of school administrator, so this is where I live eleven hours a day. I am not a failure as a task master of the home, so this is where I spend what free time I have left in the day. But if I am honest, my inner self is frightened this is all I will become.
Without my Throughines team, I would probably remain silent in this fear, but you see, assigned blogging keeps you honest. And I can’t come to this work with false pretenses. We have always developed our experiences from a place of true given circumstances and now can be no different.
ASK yourself…am I living in fear?
MAKE a choice to face that fear.
REFLECT on how much better life will be when we push through the minutia, dig in and feel things deeply and do something extraordinary.
Art, Theatre, Dance, Music…they are the threads that keep humanity together and I am so grateful to be assigned moments of truth telling no matter what storm may be in the forecast. In this country, we all have the power to live with purpose which goes beyond our “to do” list. People with greater responsibilities and fewer resources than I, are living life with more grace…time for me to step up.